Happy New Year!!

So we have started into a new year and has things changed or have we just carried on doing the same old.

Well my plan is to make 2019 my year after the terrible 2018 I have had, although i never thought i would be getting divorced but having no choice and that the man i married and spent the last 18 years of my life with, would betray and treat me like that.  But knowing what i do now and having to be strong and trying to find out i am now and starting over again, which is very scary.  Although it hasn’t been the best start to the year, it is only the 2nd week of January and still have time, but i know its going to take hard work, time and so much strength to make my life how I want it to be.  I couldn’t be with out my parents, which we aren’t perfect and I am not the easiest daughter or person who tells people how she is actually feeling, which i do a lot of holding back and my head is screaming for me to tell people how I am actually feeling.  But i just can’t explain why i can’t, apart not wanting to burden anyone with my fears.

I have come to the conclusion that maybe it isn’t good to hold everything back and not only is it stressing me out more but pushing everyone away.

Enough of being miserable but now is how am going to make my new pathway into life and 2019.  So i have my parents and a few close and beautiful friends, including some guys from school – yeah your beautiful too lol.  I do have a list of things which i want to do:-

1. Holiday
2. Get fit and lose weight – feel comfortable in myself
3. Build up a clientele for my Nail and Beauty Business
4. Make my house more my own
5. Going out with my girls
6. Experience new things out of my comfort zone